Out of sight, out of mind…and heart?
It’s this silent crush I have… I maybe see him once every week or every other week, depending. When I’m not around him though, the crush fades I don’t think about him, every hour of my day or before I even go to bed. But that moment when we cross paths for a few hours I can literally feel the drool running down my chin. Yes your right he’s super attractive but so are a lot of guys I see. I’m drawn into his words, his gestures, even his facial expression. It’s like he turns on some magnetic field that just so happens to run positive with mine and I’m captivated. That night…and that night only I go home completely obsessed and starry eyed with him and craving more. The next morning arrives and alarms scream at me…yes I said plural ALARMS because I set many to get my ass out of bed. And suddenly the frames of last night leak out onto my pillow and slowly the feelings are lost.
Why? Is this what a crush is? Or is this purely an attraction?
Or maybe…just maybe…I hold him in a small part of my heart that I don’t recognize till he comes around and I allow myself to open up…and with each passing time I see him that small areas grows just a centimeter more…